I Can Do It!!!!

Wow, have I been bi-polar for the past week or what?! Just before my last blog I was feeling kind of down. Grumpy. Then, on one sunny Thursday morning, I woke up, so happy and exhilarated by life that I could hardly contain my enthusiasm! I even jumped and squealed at work. It was the feeling that I knew everything was working out for me. I had a fun law of attraction moment on the Friday evening. Susan came over to help me with Feng Shui. I'd bought a little mirror the reflect the bad chi from entering my room. She told me to hang it outside my door, just above. I mentioned that I'd just hammer a nail in and hang it. We then looked above the door, and noticed there was already a random nail hammered into the wood!

So I felt just wonderful for a good few days.. then towards the end of last week I started to feel really depressed. On Friday it the worst I'd felt in months. That feeling of hopelessness.. not caring anymore.. lower than hating. It was a god awful feeling, because I've been there before, and it really isn't fun. Over the weekend I really couldn't gather the effort to complete anything productive. So today I was giving myself a good guilt trip about "look at all these goals you have, why can't you finish anything?".

We have an absolute sh*tload of clients at work who are running their own business, and can't, and don't get anything done. Maybe that's what pulled me out of it today. Just when I'm feeling really sorry for myself and I'm really disappointed that I haven't stuck to my guns, I'm reminded that I'm really pretty damn good at life in general compared to many, many people. E.g. Those who are 40 and still haven't got their own home, are still on dismal wages, and/or are in a massive amount of debt. I'm 25, with my life ahead of me! At 40 I'll have my home, my investment property/s, my own extremely successful business, and I will be a motivational speaker and I'll have published at least one book. That's my ambition anyway. :)

I made myself a promise today. As of Monday, 30th March, 2009, in order to end the year having succeeded everything I want to ($100K income, amazing success at uni, challenging, fulfilling job), I promise to:
* Sell Items on EBay and Start Web Design Business
* Save & Invest Money for the Future
* Study Diligently & Achieve Great Marks
* Exercise 3-4x/week and Eat Well
* No Smoking

I will keep you posted.